Because of I grew up in a church community I'm Exploring my Sexuality and wht actually turns me on late. After leaving college I moved to H-town. Life happened and I now dance at a night club. Only one person in my life right now knows just how out of my element I really am. She keeps my secret and I let her guide me thru new experiences(which see Enjoy too much at times) Everyone else in my life right now sees the girl i want them to see but its all a lie. Im spinning in life right now and is getting intense the more i lie but i feel trapped. I am finding my "freak" is nastier than i thot out how and some darker kinks I found tht i wish had stayed suppressed, but she tells me tht we dnt choose our inner freak we can only sacrifice offerings to appease her lol! The last sacrifice was when I got my "Lush" remote vibe(I hate tht thing) and she had tied me dwn for 2 hrs testing it out. I was begging for mercy while speaking in tongues she said. I also lost consciousness twice much to her delight. She scares me sometimes. well, Ive been scared or at least really intimidated by her since we 1st met at the club. She wouldn't let me forget my place and rank at the club calling me "new booty" still till this day. Ive always been disturbed by the way my bullies in life turn me on. I've tried to get attention or acceptance by doing the things they want me to do or trying to be wht they want. Usually My gullibility and naive nature just gets taken advantage of and I get used and end up looking stupid and blaming myself. But I can't seem to stop myself from playing the same scenario time after time. Its got me into some really hairy situations and predicaments tht I've literally had no choice but to fuck my way out of. Ive been

Interests
Im interested in becoming shameless so I can be the nasty slut she thinks I am and needs me to be. . I want to show tht Im not an " inexperienced, Missionary style sheltered prude" tht she says i am when she teases. at least Im not anymore. The last time i had a sex on my bck is when I got my "Lush" remote vibe(I hate tht thing) and she had tied me dwn for 2 hrs testing it out.