Once, when Jun was younger and engaged but not yet married, there had been an incident in the Pyongyang apartment block where she had lived with her parents and brother. A couple had been overheard making love too loudly. The police had come and hauled them outside, and the incautious lovers had been forced to stand naked in the open air outside the building. Almost the entire building had come out to subject them to criticism and the man and the woman, both shaking with cold and humiliation, were forced to sign a confession in public. Jun recalled watching this strange scene through the window, and vowing to always be secretive and private about her intimate life with her future husband.
And now, a lifetime of caution and demure behaviour had been thrown out of the window in the throes of passion. Dani, her first Spanish lover, had taken her body to a place she had never imagined was possible and she had gone willingly. She had come so hard that she had vocalised her pleasure without any restraint at all.
As she lay in bed recovering from the fiercest orgasm of her life, Jun recalled that incident in far-offpost-orgasmic Korea and blushed furiously.
Suddenly, she grabbed the sheets and pulled them over her naked body.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered, “I’m sorry!”
Dani, who had been enjoying his own post orgasmic glow, felt the sudden chill as the linen was yanked away from around him. He frowned.
“What’s wrong?” he asked her, surprised, “Hey, don’t cry! I enjoyed it. Didn’t you?”
“I’m sorry,” she repeated, rubbing the tears that were now trickling down her face.
“What’s wrong?” Dani asked again, bewildered.
“I was…very loud,” she stuttered, “I was not a good woman.”
Dani put his hand on her shoulder.
“Jun, you didn’t do anything wrong.”
She had buried her head in her hands now.
“I’m so embarrassed, so embarrassed.”
“Why? You just came, that’s all. It’s fine. It’s allowed.”
“Orgasm is allowed but not…so loud!”
Dani laughed.
“You can be as loud as you like, Jun. It’s hot, hearing you come.”
Jun said nothing in reply to this. But Dani’s words had an immediate effect on her. Was he really…pleased with her? Could a man hear a sexual partner cry out aloud and not be embarrassed, not think her cheap and immodest and rude? That would never, ever be the case at home.
Dani wrapped his arms around her from behind and held her back and bottom close to him. The warmth of his body felt nice, she had to admit. Soon, she felt that his penis was swelling back up to itslight-hearted full size.
“Let’s try again,” he whispered into her ear.
Her husband had encouraged her, she told herself as she spread her legs for Dani for the second time. It was her husband’s idea and she was obeying him, as a wife should. Kim would be well satisfied with her for inviting Dani’s cock inside her, Jun reasoned, and if she enjoyed it, Kim could hardly complain.
And how could she not enjoy the way Dani teased her nipples and kissed her belly? How could she not thrill to the stroke of his fingers along the ridges inside her vagina? What woman could resist being kissed like that?
Relax, she told herself, relax and do your duty and everyone will be happy, even Kim. The orgasm will be a bonus…
Dani’s penis was so hard. Dani was so strong yet gentle. He made her so, so wet as he thrust inside her. Jun had to tell herself to focus, to master her breathing, but she could already feel the sweet bud of her orgasm growing inside her. She rubbed Dani’s chest and he smiled down at her.
“Jun, I want you to come. I want you to come and enjoy it and not worry about anything, ok?” Dani said. She looked up at him and his eyes were warm. She nodded and closed her eyes, then she raised her legs to allow him deeper inside her.
“There we go!” said Dani with a giggle. She smiled too, and the smile at the light hearted remark soon gave way to an involuntary grin as her arousal grew. Jun closed her eyes and reached down to stroke her swollen clit, which pulled her further down the road to heaven. Oh, it felt so good!
As the sex with Dani progressed, Jun tried to think of the baby that was the goal of the encounter. It was about…oh! Him! It was about him! Or…her! She had to get pregnant and then it was…oh! And the…oh…best…ah…life…for…the…child…in…aaahhhhhhhh….Europe…
Jun lost the train of thought entirely. The plan to get herself pregnant receded in her mind, swamped by a tsunami of sexual joy as she came once more. By the end of her second orgasm of the encounter, she was praying that she would not be inseminated today. She wanted the chance to try again.
*
Dani left early the next morning, promising to call her. Within two minutes of the front door closing, her husband was in the bedroom with her. Kim stood there for a long time, just looking at his wife. Jun felt his eyes on her, wondering what he was thinking. He said nothing, but at length, he sat down on the bed beside her.
“Do you think it worked?” he said at last.
“I don’t know. There was no protection. He…you know…inside me. Twice.”
“Good. So we’ll know in…”passers-by
“About a month. If my bleed is late, we’ll do a test.”
There was a long silence between them. Kim looked at the disorderly bed.
“You enjoyed it,” Kim said flatly.
Jun blushed and nodded.
“I heard.”
Jun’s eyes widened in horror. She hadn’t known that her husband had been listening in to her having the best sex she had ever had.
“Kim, I…”
“It’s fine.”
The sounds of pigeons cooing and some passers-by laughing drifted into the room. Kim shook his head.
“Jun, I never…I never learned how to please you. I never knew you could enjoy sex so much. I have failed you. I am sorry.”
This totally threw Jun off. She had thought he was jealous, and was expecting an angry outburst.
“How did he do it?” Kim asked, “How did he make you scream like that?”
Jun hesitated, unsure what to say.
“Jun, it’s ok. I want to know. I want to be a better husband.”
At length, she said,
“Well, Dani took more time to prepare me. He…touched me for longer than you do before he…entered me. And he…used not just his fingers. He used his tongue.”
Kim’s eyes were like saucers.
“And…he started slowly and built up speed. And he…”
She stopped. She could educate her husband on technique. But she could not humiliate Kim by telling him that Dani’s penis was around fifty percent bigger than his. That was not Kim’s fault, and she could hardly expect him to go out to the store for a bigger one.
“My tongue,” murmured Kim, and she realised the idea had never occurred to him, “My tongue?”
Jun nodded.
“Yes. It feels really nice,” she said matter-of-factly.
“Have you had enough for today?” he asked.
“I’m a little sore,” she told him honestly.
“I see,” Kim said, obviously disappointed.
“But tonight, we can!” Jun added brightly.
That night, Kim went down on his wife for the first time.
Jun, lying on her back and feeling his inexpert lappings with his tongue, thought of Dani and how symbolic it was for her husband to be cleaning out her vagina after her wild night on the point of another man’s cock.
“Your sex tastes delicious,” Kim whispered to her from between her legs, “Like the sweetest tea!”
Jun smiled and willed her body to orgasm. It felt nice, even if Kim’s skills left something to be desired. In the end, he tried so hard that she pretended to orgasm, even if she never quite got there.
To her amazement, from that night on, Kim began to ask to go down on her regularly. Almost every day, in fact, he would spend time between her legs. He asked her for feedback and, if it was hardly romantic for her to be saying things like,
“Up a bit! Not there, to the left!” as her husband licked her, it did result in a swift improvement in his technique. After a week, he had her unable to keep still. After two weeks, she had her first real orgasm from oral sex. And still Kim practiced and still he tried to overcome his lack of education in female pleasure.
But Kim was not the only one paying Jun’s pussy attention that strange month…
*
In the days following her night with Dani, Jun returned to work at the cafe. Dani didn’t stop by for a couple of days. She wasn’t sure if that was a good thing or not. She certainly didn’t want him to get any ideas of a serious relationship with her into his head.
And yet, her body cried out for another session in bed with the man. His touch and his muscular torso had been like rocket fuel for her. Jun had a spring in her step for days after he had fucked her. She began to fantasize about him showing up at work, paying off the manager and driving her home to his place then taking her with wild abandon.
He did not, but he did message her.
“Loved the other night. Do it again sometime? X”
She began typing a reply with a smiling emoji, saying she hoped the day would come…
Wait! she stopped herself short, before she pressed ‘send’.
Jun, she told herself, you slept with Dani to get pregnant, not to orgasm! You can’t have sex with him again just for fun, that’s cheating!
But it wasn’t ‘just for fun’, she reasoned. It could take many attempts to conceive a baby. She might have to have regular sex to ensure that their plan to secure permanent residency in Europe came off. And it didn’t necessarily have to be Dani…
No. Don’t go there. She had chosen him and she had to stick with him. She couldn’t go with another man. When she told herself that, she did mean it. Comforted that she was just doing her duty, just following the plan, she messaged Dani and agreed to meet again for sex. As she sent the message, she felt a thrill of anticipation and excitement course through her body.
But two days later, there was a twist she had not seen coming.
*
It was only in the fevered dreams of a hungry childhood that Jun had imagined such a place as Jusco supermarket. The first time that Jun set foot in a supermarket in Spain, she had to leave within five minutes. She wandered as if in a daze past the endless food laid out in long lines, and the rich-smelling riot of colours that was the fruit and vegetable rack. The meat that could be kept cool for days and not go off. And the alcohol! She watched with fascinated horror as people spent ten or twenty euros, enough to feed a family for a fortnight in Pyongyang, on a bottle of whiskey that they did not even need!
It was just overwhelming. There was more food under that one roof than she had ever seen in her lifetime. She felt a little dizzy and hurried out to get fresh air. Jun looked up at the sky, breathing heavily, leaning on the wall outside and wondering if she was dreaming, if she would wake up and find herself back in North Korea.
Even the best places in Pyongyang were poorly stocked and frequently short of goods to sell. She recalled how harried and irritable her mother had always been when leading her on shopping trips, how there had always been something she needed but couldn’t get, always a shortage that meant mother could only have one, not the two she wanted…
But that was just how life was. Jun hadn’t considered herself poor or unfortunate. She just thought that was the way things were.
Since coming to Spain, the scales had been tumbling from her eyes. She had ogled the well fed men and women down at the beach, marveling at their full bodies, then she had seen Dani naked and enjoyed his flesh, and she had realised that people in the west were actually not starving in the streets, as she had been told all her life by government propaganda.
“In Europe, the capitalist bosses hoard so much money that they live as if they were kings! And do they pay their workers for their labour? No! In Europe, famished mothers beg for scraps from the bosses as their skeletal babies cling to their breasts, but the capitalist swine walk past as if the poor have no humanity!”
That was the tone of the material she had been fed regarding life in Europe at school.
Gradually, it was becoming clear to Jun that Europeans were not only fine, they were much, much richer than the brainwashed people of North Korea could imagine.
There was one question she couldn’t shake from her mind. She understood now that the Party had been infected with bad people. There were agents in the North Korean government from abroad, working to keep the peasants hungry and poor. The evidence was everywhere before her eyes and she could no longer deny it.
What she just couldn’t understand was, why didn’t the Dear Leader do something about it? Did he not know that places like Jusco existed? That seemed unlikely, being the president and all. Did he know, but did nothing to help his people? How could that be, when he was dearer to her, and she to him, than her own father?
Was he not able to act? Could it be that the man who had the power to wield the atom could not help to feed his people? But then he was not all-powerful. How could that be?
It was while she was pushing her trolley around Jusco, and ruminating on just such a question, that she spotted Albert. He was tall and had short brown hair. He wore jeans and a stylish leather jacket. He was with a woman who looked so like him that they could only be brother and sister. As she walked past them, Jun could not help look Albert over, and their eyes briefly met. Instinctively, she flashed a smile at him.
A few steps later, she heard the woman say, “That Asian girl totally just checked you out! Go talk to her!”
Realising that her Spanish must have improved greatly to have been able to understand that, Jun flushed with pride. She paused to idly pretend to browse some products on the shelf. A few seconds later, Albert was at her side.
“I’m Albert. That was a beautiful smile you just gave me!” Jun blushed.
“I’ll give you one back if I can have your name?”
“Jun.”
“Is that Korean?”
She nodded.
“No kidding! We’ve been to Korea! Well, the South, of course. Are you from Seoul?”
“Yes,” she lied. She was not incautious enough to let on that she was an escapee that easily. Not until her residency was secure.
“Marta, Jun here is from Korea!”
Albert and his sister invited Jun for coffee and, when she got up to leave them in the cafe, her number was saved in Albert’s phone and his in hers.
It was the precursor to the strangest day of her entire life.
*
At eight o’clock, Jun spread her legs for her husband’s daily practice of cunnilingus. It had become a ritual for them. They’d wake, pee, brush teeth and then the day would start with oral sex for her.
Kim was now relatively proficient at it, and Jun appreciated the effort he had made.
Where he had once licked her genitals almost at random, now she could feel him make a beeline for her clitoris. And he didn’t just latch on to her clit and stay there. He gently, lovingly touched up other areas, treating her whole vagina as if it were a banquet and he a gourmet, savouring each mouthful. Kim felt her vagina grow wetter as she looked up from her pillow. Kim kissed her inner thighs, then returned to her clitoris.