I am married I have been for 5 years! I love my husband but I can't help but love women! I get off just thinking about or reading about or watching girls get off in random ways! I have never had the chance to really put this to the test with a man or a woman! I know that I can be turned on by a man but there has to be a lot of making out and heavy petting! I wish I didn't live in such a small town or else I would try to find a girl to bring her back to my house to test out this theory (DH did always say as long as he could watch he didn't care)! I didn't even know I liked girls until I was 17! So I'm so lost!
Because you have never been with a female, there could be two reasons why you find yourself attracted to them.
1. You are truly attracted to females
or
2. It could be that something is missing from your sex life.
I was like you in a way and was turned on by watching two women together, reading about it and thinking about it. I found it so erotic that I started to consider myself as a lesbian. My male partners just didn't do it for me. But then I was introduced to women, toys and men who knew how to use the tongue. As I am sexually attracted to men and woman (lean more towards women), I now class myself as bi sexual.
Unfortunately the only way to answer this question is to try to find a girl by maybe traveling to a different town, but be aware, it could provoke feelings you did not know exist and could spell the end of your marriage. But don't let that put you off. Be true to yourself, because there is nothing worse then being in a loving but unhappy marriage. It always turns into a loveless marriage. I had to watch my parents live like that for many a years and I would not wish that on anyone.
Good luck and I hope you find your answer soon.
From my experience,
A person is bi-sexual when they get the same feeling, emotionally and sexually. with either sex. If they have the feelings but have never been with the same sex, I would think they are more "bi-curious". Until they have a few "meetings" with the same sex, they just don't know how to react to their feelings and needs.
A gay or lesbian is emotionally and sexually tied to the same sex exclusively. They have no desire to be with the opposite sex at all.
I have many friends that fit into all three categories and love them all.
It just comes down to "different strokes for different folks".
Thank you both for your help! I think I really do need to find someone to help me explore my feelings! I love my husband dearly and always will but I have to say I am quite curious as to whether these feelings are real or just a random fantasy! Luckily I have a wonderful hubby who is willing to let me explore a bit but so long as he can be in the same room!
Why not go with hubby to an upscale "exotic dance club"... and get a few lap dances (either yourself while hubby watches, or both of you as a couple). Its a really fun experience, and it will be a way for you to get close to a beautiful woman in a sexy yet non-threatening way... and see if you are still turned on to want more?
