As I rounded the corner by the school, a small dog yapped at me, straining at a leash held by someone I couldn't see. A few steps later I realised it was the big woman from the street next to mine. The dog continued to pull and jump and make its barky noises, the sort of thing that frightens children and adults who don't understand and see it as aggression. In fact it's usually just an inquisitive, talkative young canine that means no harm. The woman pulled him back sharply.
She was in her late thirties, I would guess. When I say she was big, I mean tall - at least six feet - and possessed of a physique that in a man would be called well-built. She wouldn't have looked out of place on a rugby pitch. Not fat, nor muscular, but... imposing is a word that might do the job. And there is nothing wrong with that in my opinion, but such physical specimens are probably teased in their school days. Not bullied, because they are more than big enough to look after themselves, but I'll bet this woman had had nicknames behind her back, referring to her size. Even as she entered the adult world, most men would have been put off by her dimensions, fearing she would have been too much for them. So, she might have found a niche as an amateur dominatrix, which wouldn't necessarily lead to long-term personal relationships and domestic bliss. She might by then have gone down the lesbian route, possessing the bulk and power of a man without the innate male characteristics that turn the sapphic sisters off.
All of this flashed through my mind in a few seconds because I had thought it before. She was fairly good-looking but not exactly pretty. The world is full of such women - and men, come to that. We are unhappy with our imperfections and try to gain confidence from the fact that we're not hideous. We're acceptable. The ugly old male assessment, "I wouldn't kick her out of bed" is just a grotesque way of saying a girl was perfectly acceptable, and the boys who used the expression were merely trying to give themselves a bit of kudos with their friends, whether they considered themselves attractive or harboured fears that they were nothing special.
I had been wanting to talk to this woman for months, ever since I had moved to the area., but I had never had the chance, only seeing her in the street, sometimes with an elderly woman with a walking stick, who I took to be her mother.
"How old is he?" I ventured, looking at the dog.
"Six months," she replied. "He's a bit mouthy but he's as good as gold really."
"You're looking very athletic," I said, trying to sound jovial. "Going for a run with the dog?"
She looked uncomfortable at the fact that I had observed her appearance.
"It's just a fleece and leggings," she said, "It's comfortable."
"Yes, I suppose so," I said, in retreat. "Looks good, though."
"Listen," she said with her head cocked. "If you're looking for someone to chat up you'd be better off with my auntie. She's about your age."
"I'm sorry," I said. "Force of habit." That was it, the sum total of my defence and I had no follow-up to take it in another direction. I stood there like a fool.
"Ach, don't worry about it," she said. "You're harmless. Probably. Now I've got to go," and she walked past me and down the road. Then she called over her shoulder, "She'll be in the County Inn for dinner about half six."
I got to the County at 6:45, but there was no sign of them. I sat with a pint of the cheapest beer, this being a pub where you could pay £6 a pint if you weren't careful, and if you're on a low income, that can eat up your bank balance shockingly fast.
I was about to give up when, at 7:15, the tall woman came barging in through the front door and walked straight over to my table.
"Had an emergency," she said breathlessly. "She wasn't happy with her aluminium stick so we had to hunt around and borrow a nice one. She's on the way. Get her a Cinzano and lemonade. They keep it specially for her."
"Ice and lemon?" I asked half-jokingly.
"Two slices of lemon and a green olive," she said, looking around the room. "You can nick one from the bowls on the bar. Ah, here she is. I'm Teri. Got to see somebody. Auntie Vi, this is... what's his name." And with that she disappeared into the crowd.
Vi and I shook hands and she sat down. I got another pint for myself and the Cinzano and trappings for her.
"So, you're my date," she said with a grin that had something of the delirious about it.
"Yes, I suppose I am," I said, and we set off on the journey of discovery that you go through with any new acquaintance, whether you have been set up by their niece or not.
Her name was Felicity and she was known as Fliss. She was younger than she looked, just turned sixty-six and the walking stick was because of a long-standing knee injury that needed to be looked after.
"No, I'm not decrepit," she said. "Everything in working order except the bloody knee." She looked at me to see if I had read more into this than she intended.
"Me too," I said. "We're not dead yet, are we?"
"No, although you'd think that from the way some people treat you," she said with feeling.
Thus established as fellow members of the generation that invented sex, we both relaxed into a kind of conspiratorial camaraderie.
Every generation thinks it has invented sex, of course. They can't imagine their parents doing it, let alone grandparents, but it came out of the shadows in the early 1960s to be talked about more openly, where previously most women certainly hadn't admitted they had any interest and men had simply bragged and lied among themselves. In the Sixties came the miniskirt and the contraceptive pill and suddenly there was a bit more honesty and the permissiveness to give people something to be honest about.
By the time Teri joined us, Fliss and I were firm friends, but by nine o'clock she was ready to go home. At a younger age I would probably have tried to get her to get home with me or invite me to hers, but those things clearly weren't going to happen. Instead we arranged to meet for a cup of tea the next afternoon. And yes, I did have fantasies about what we were going to do together when the opportunity presented itself. But I didn't have a wank about it that night because night is the province of young people and I'm better in the daytime these days.
We had a cup of tea and a piece of cake each; these two old codgers in the tearoom must have looked like an old married couple, out for the highlight of our week. That couldn't have been more wrong. I was thinking about getting Fliss's clothes off, having warmed the bedroom up first, of course. She accepted my invitation to go to my house and watch TV. There was a little glint in her eye as she accepted, though, and I knew I was in with a chance.
We walked back along the little river and sat on the bench to give her knee a rest. I touched it gently, as if I were blessing it, and stroked her leg quickly. We both looked around to check there was no one coming and, the coast being clear, I left my hand there and she put hers on top of mine.
Back at my house we sat together on the settee and watched a cookery programme.
"How's the knee?" I asked, giving myself a reason to put my hand on it.
"Fine," she said. "You have a nice gentle touch." I squeezed her knee gently and she looked at me in a way I interpreted as inviting me to go further. I decided to do what she probably hadn't experienced in many years: I put my hand up the old lady's skirt. Again she looked at me with permission in her eyes. I slid my hand all the way to the top of her leg, enjoying the silkiness. When I began to tickle her through her knickers, she sat back, so I removed my hand.
"I didn't say stop," she said, putting my hand back up her skirt. "But you should kiss me too."
How stupid of me. Somewhere in the back of my mind something said the old rules didn't apply, but she was telling me they did. I would have to forget we were two a man and a woman old enough for most people to think we were past it.
I wrapped my arms around her and we kissed gently but deeply. She liked it. I squeezed her left breast and she liked that too.
"Take me to bed," Fliss whispered.
As we reached the bedroom door she asked where the bathroom was and excused herself to "pop" into it for a minute.
I sat on the bed, feeling impatient yet hesitant. Just feel her up, undress her and do what you have always done, I told myself.
"Don't look so petrified," she said. "Actually, do you know what petrify means? I looked it up once when I was doing a crossword. It means to convert organic matter into stone. So part of you can be petrified if you like. Are you petrified in any way?"
"In a good way," I said. "Getting there, anyway."
"Let's get in," she said. "It's a bit chilly out here."
So we both undressed quickly and got into bed together for the very sensible reason that it was cold. We assumed our natural positions, she on her back and I leaning over, kissing her, with a hand between her legs. Her pubic hair was delicate and sparse. Her skin was soft and rather loose, like mine. Her vagina was warm and more than moist, quite slippery. I stimulated her clitoris and she gave m a look that seemed to combine surprise, appreciation and gratitude, as if I had achieved something she had doubted could be achieved at this stage of her life. My penis was hard and eager in her hand. She squeezed the shaft and jerked the skin up and down a bit before taking my knob and just holding it like a prize.