"Wasn't that amazing, babe?" he boasts. His pride oozes from every pore, just as his cum still oozes from my unsatisfied body.
Unfortunately for him, I am unimpressed. I rise. I wrap the sheet around my naked body. And I give him an uninterested, "Mhm."
Then I hear him snoring already and realize he never even heard my indifference.
Seven minutes start to finish, and now I stand in the bathroom wanting to scream at the top of my lungs. Not in anger, not in sadness, but rather, scream just to disrupt his peaceful slumber—a childish tantrum in response to years of selfish and unsatisfying sex with my husband.
But I remain silent.
Soundlessly, I clean away all evidence of his cold attempt to be close to me, and I slip into my robe.
Noiselessly, I cross the hall from the bathroom to my office with the stealth moves of a night-prowling cat hunting her latest meal.
I am hunting for my laptop. I settle into the comfy couch and log in with excitement rushing through my body.
My Lush account's familiar red and black comes to the screen, and I see that HE is on already. I immediately begin to tingle just seeing his name with that little green light. I am barely there for fifteen seconds before my IM dings, and I see his words that never fail to stir me from my lips to my loins.
"Hi, lover."
And so, it begins.
Even our hellos are foreplay. There is sincerity in him that makes me feel cared for and wanted.
I am not naïve; I know everything a rational person would say about these online interactions that are just words on a page, never talking, never meeting.
Now ask me if I care. I need to feel like a sexy woman, and he does that for me in the here and now. So, no, I don't care.
He asks me what I am wearing and tells me how much he needs to be close to me tonight.
I feel the yearning in his tone – we need each other tonight.
He tells me to untie my robe, so I do. Faking it never even occurs to me.
He tells me to rub my nipples as if his hands and fingers are exploring my breasts and playing with their tips, pinching, pulling, then finally, as I beg, sucking on my nipples.
As I do, I feel the electricity run from my tits to my pelvis. I roll both nipples simultaneously, pinch and pull to the point of slight pain, but pleasure as well. I realize I am moaning out loud and must struggle to suppress my excitement.
He laughs when I tell him this and says to be careful.
He calls me his alluring goddess; he makes me feel beautiful. He talks of investigating every peak and valley of my body with his soft lips and fingertips, like an eager explorer in a new land.
With a giggle at his metaphor, my excitement, and my yearning grow. When I admit this to my lover, new instructions come across the screen.